Ive been absent, life got busy and oh how things have changed. I don’t even know where to begin, so I’ll just fill you in in the simplified version.
- I have less than 7 months until I graduate nursing school; Senior year is not joke people. Its been very overwhelming but I just keep reminding myself that God has a purpose for me and through my career I can serve him each and every day.
- I separated/filed for divorce with my husband after only 2.5 years of marriage. Many people may think I just have up in my marriage but it wasn’t healthy and hadn’t been for a very long time. You can only take so much mental and emotional damage before you’ve had enough. I always told myself my first marriage was going to be my only marriage. I saw my parents go through divorce and I told myself I was never going to do that. But I also thought I knew the Man I was marrying but boy was I fooled. He hid it all from me until the day we said “I Do”. Then all his demons came out and our marriage went down with it. Im okay though. There was no mental, emotional or physical connection in the marriage for about a year and a half, maybe longer. We were both starting to resent each other and the love was gone because it was built upon lies he told me for so long. I am stronger because of this experience and I will be okay.
- I have reconnected with some amazing friends from high school and have been focusing on building up the current friendships I have right now. Its been amazing to finally live for the first time in my life. I was so restricted to life and I am only 23 years old. For the first time, I feel alive and everyone around me can see it.
- Through my heartbreak and over the past year I have grown really close in my relationship with God. Ive spent a lot of time talking with him and asking for his guidance in his plan for me. During my darkest time, he brought someone back into my life that I have always thought about. I don’t know what the future holds, but God brought this person back into my life for a reason and you guys; I am feeling so blessed right now. Sometimes God puts us in bad relationships/marriages so we can be the best person possible for the partner God always intended us to be with. I think that might be what this is, but for now I am just going to trust in God and give it all to him.
Thats the short summary of what has been going on in my life. Its been heartbreaking but also full of happiness and life at the same time. Im excited to see what this next chapter of my life has because I am closing the old one and ready to start living again.